Hopes & Fears.

There's a few bands in the world that I know of that have something unique and powerful about their music. The vocalists have a way of sending a chill down my spine in a very much good way, and the lyrics leave me thinking and wondering hours after the song has finished. For maybe four or five minutes, the music I'm listening to gives me something to believe in. These artists may come from a place half way across the world, but for some minutes in time, are with me, telling me with the words they have, secretly.. Everything will be okay in the end. They might not say that, but there's something in their voice that is telling me, letting me know.. That the pain they are singing about, the lessons they have learnt, the music they are playing - in the end, everything is going to be okay. There is something truly powerful and wonderful about a band that can give hope and belief.

So this post is entitled "Hopes & Fears". I don't just randomly name these blogs, it's usually after a song. But this post is after an album. Probably one of the greatest albums I own. It is the title of an English rock bands' first album. This amazing band is Keane.

So this blog is dedicated to my hopes, and my fears. What I wish for, and what I dread.

Hopes:
- I'll do good enough to get into uni, and hopefully get to pursue something arty ~
- Everything I want right now is what I have tomorrow.
- One day have a great family. I really want a daughter. I'm thinking the name Alison something-or-other.
- Meet Hugh Laurie.
- One day somehow let Andrew McMahon know his bands song 'Hammers and Strings [A Lullaby]' made me have an undeniable and sadly sorrowful outlook on life. It made me believe and reflect. It sent a million chills down my spine at once.
- The same goes for Evanescence. Except for one song, it's their whole four albums plus the leaked shiz. God I love Amy Lee so truthfully.
- Have an artwork of mine in an art gallery. I don't care where - just anywhere.
- Being able to look back and have no regrets with anything. I'm like that right now. I regret nothing, and it's a great feeling (:
- Being a good person the next sixty years or so.
- Being able to one day be strong enough as a person to do what I truly want. Not just sit back and let it all happen, but take action.
- Go to a total of 100 gigs by the time I'm 25. Counting now, I've been to: Hilary Duff (Y); The Veronicas; Kelly Clarkson; Tegan & Sara; Foo Fighters; Architecture In Helsinki; British India & co.; Kevin Devine & co.; Panic at the Disco, TAI & Cobra Starship; Goodnight Nurse;. - There's probably more, but I'm tired and it's hurting to think. So that's ten. I need ninety more in the next nine years. I can do it (:
- One day not being afraid of change.

Fears:
- Getting old too quickly.
- Losing sight of what's important.
- Not persuing in the art department.
- Not getting to be the person I wish to be.
- Not being with the people I want to be with.
- A world without Tom.
- Just overall not living life because I'm too scared, or because I don't think I'm strong enough.
- Having regrets. Regrets kill me. Trust me on that.
- I think I could live with not meeting Hugh Laurie, or the Evanescence and Jack's Mannequin things. But I would very much like to cross off the rest of my 'Hopes' list as done (: I wouldn't like leaving a single one. I fear that. Everything in that list is something I want in my future. I need that list.

So that's what I've got tonight. I finished work two hours ago, and I'm tired. If I think of more, I'll be sure to add them.

You think your days are uneventful and no-one ever thinks about you.
She goes her own way. She goes her own way.
You think your days are ordinary. And no-one ever thinks about you.
But we're all the same.
And she can hardly breathe without you..

Well think about the lonely people.
Then think about the day she found you.
Or lie to yourself.
And see it all dissolve around you.

I love Keane. I love this album. I love that song.