Either Way, I'll Break Your Heart Someday.

So when my first relationship ended I used to have a book where I wrote down everything, where I sketched my drawings.
Then one day I didn't have that book, and I felt very lost without it.

The same thing kind of happened with this blog.
I started blogging because I was feeling pretty lost and angry, and then I gave up on it a few days ago, and I felt a little lost this afternoon when I was thinking about it. Looking at the posts I've done since September, this blog kind of seems like the book I used to have, where I'd come and just write about how shit life was without that certain person, and how I was trying my hardest to be okay, but certainly failing at that.

Things have been going good now. You know, when I started this blog I didn't think I'd ever say that.. Definately not about Tom, that's for sure. But, in the department of Sarah's shiz, things have been good.. Maybe not a few days ago, but you know.

So I kind of started this blog at 9 last night, and it's 12:42 a.m now. I need music, but my iPod's dead, so I'm waiting for it to charge and listening to Tom's iPod. Man, the only band I really know on it is Three Days Grace. So now I'm listening to a song about suicide ~~ Yayyyy.

(8)This world will never be what I expected;
And if I don't belong, who would have guessed it?
I will not leave alone everything that I own.
To make you feel like it's not too late - it's never too late.

Even if I say it'll be alright,
Still I hear you say you want to end your life.
Now and again we try to just stay alive,
Maybe we'll turn it all around, cos it's not too late.
It's never too late.

I used to love that song so much.
It's a good song actually.
So is Gone Forever. I loved that song x 91820209719182o.

(8)Don't know what's going on,
Don't know what went wrong.
Feels like a hundred years, I still can't believe you're gone.
So I'll stay up all night, with these bloodshot eyes.
While these walls surround me with the story of our lives.

I feel so much better now that you're gone forever.
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all.
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now that
You're gone forever.

~

And now it's coming clear,
That I don't need you here.
And in this world around me,
I'm glad you disappeared.

Yeah,
I loved that song.

This night feels like a night of remembrance ~
Remembering who I was, who I was with, what music I listened to.
Now I'm listening to Hawthorne Heights (:
I gave up on his iPod, but I'm using his earphones ~~ (Y).
They're good ~

I'm tired, but I'm in the mood for Susie Suh, so I need my iPod.
I really like finding artists who can express great emotion into their lyrics and music.
Susie Suh fo' sho.

Wow, this blog's going to be about music.
Awesome.

Amanda Palmer's coming to Australia ^^
Hmm, maybe I'm in the mood for The Dresden Dolls.

(8)Say what you will, I am the kill.

Just spent a good half an hour watching Amanda Palmer on YouTube (Y).
Blog out.