A Short Story Of Nearly Nothing.

S0 last night = Amanda Palmer.
Fucking awesome. I swear.

She sang a song, I've been trying to find it's original artist but I've failed to do so. And in the song, it said "I don't need you to need me to need you". It said 'want' was fine, but needing was bad. Because, and she sang this, one day you die. Now in some context maybe dying isn't physical. Maybe it could be the dying of a relationship. So if you need someone to live, and it doesn't work out, you'll be fucked. But if you can learn to not need them, and just want them, if things don't work out, you didn't need them to live, so living would be in reach. Pretty much, it all made sense. You know, for the past few days I've been feeling really shitty. And I know there's some sort of reason behind it, but this song spoke to me. Back when Tom and I weren't talking, I found it very hard at first to cope because I felt like I needed what he gave me. Turns out I was stronger than I thought. And gradually, you know, slowly, I started to be okay. I started to realise I didn't need him. I only wanted what he gave me because it made me feel better than whatever I used to feel.

I'm just not a really strong person.. And I think I needed to hear a song like that. Kudos Amanda.