I think I've accepted that I need certain people, but I don't want them to know how much. And I can be a bitch about it, but I'm seriously trying my hardest. I'm trying to be better than what I know I've been, I'm trying. It's kind of always been me against everything, and I'm not used to having people on my side. If I tear myself down, I have to tear them down also.
And because I don't want them to know how much I need them, they don't know when they upset me, and I can't explain it. And it's all stupid. In my head it's not, but in reality, it's just completely stupid. I'm a really jealous and insecure person, and I practically have no self esteem. To me, everyone else in the world is better than me, so why should I have these good things when they don't?
Being sick doesn't help the situation either.
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