Hot Mess.

Yes, I know I was not going to do a new blog, but I felt like blogging about my beautiful, amazing, cuteeeee boyfriend. I should be doing Ancient, but you know what - Tom's more important. And I really hate Ancient (A)

So, my dearest Thomas,
How do I love thee~
I love thee greatly, that is how I love thee. That is exactly how I love thee.
I love how you let me put mascara on you, I love how you think I'm a freak when I yell. I love that you and my brother are bumchumzzzz, and I love how you love Crystal, and she obviously loves you too. I love when I see you in the morning, and how you smile at me and then my Mum calls you cute. I love how we have a friend at Gloria Jeans, and how I can tell you anything at all. I love how you're appendix loves me, and how I only have half an ovary left. I love how you're my best friend, and you always make me laugh. But mostly, I love how much I love you, and how much you love me. You mean the world to me ~ I love you jelly belly.

lykwot.

My last post for a very long times - here's to the people that ruined blogger. thnkz guyz. Now I'll just have to find another place to rant and bitch about my tweeny problems.. Oh, wait. Nvr mind.

Rescue Me.

I have no idea when I'm going to start V.A, I just cannot be bothered at the moment. I just want to sleep. Mmmm, sleep sounds excellent at the moment. Not motivated to do anything at the moment. Might just listen to music, make a poor attempt to feel better.

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My accomplishments in the past month:
- I taught my self to knit, yayay.
- I got 100% in general maths, a woooooo~
My fallings:
- I'm still a moody child.

Fifty-two weeks ago tomorrow would've been my sixteenth birthday. And I remember that day. I had school, and then had work. And I met up with someone beforehand. She was a good friend, and even though everything ended on bad terms, I find myself wishing her every happiness, and I find myself missing that friendship. I honestly miss working, just for the people I used to know. Except Ziggy. But before him, Oporto used to be this really awesome environment. And I miss those people. I miss the Sunday Crew especially..
So I've changed my aspirations for after school again. Now I want to venture into Egyptology. And even though I'm welcoming the future, and all these new things, I still miss some things. I wish we didn't have to change, but I also wish some people would.

Just some thoughts as the end of my 16th year approaches.

Haunted.

Today I went out with Maria, and it was good. I love that girl a lot. Bruno was so bad we had to watch Hannah Montana to make up for it. The highlight of my day was when my Mum told us she wasn't Italian anymore. How, do not ask me ~
Also, I still love Kelly Clarkson forever. We were talking about her in the car and then Since You Been Gone came on and we sang our hearts out~ I also kicked Maria's arse in ABBA Singstar, despite what she says.

Maria, you are a hot bitch. School next week.. Not looking overly-forward to it. But it's my birthday on Friday, and then my party Saturday.. So it should be good. All I want for my birthday is the permission to sleep in every morning, and a big hug from my dog. And maybe a puppy~ So my Bella can have a friend (: Speaking of Crystal.. it's her birthday next Friday too (: I love my dog.

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I never really got into the whole Michael Jackson scene, but every song I've heard in the past two days I know. And I thank my father for that. My dad seriously has all this musical knowledge jam-packed into his head, it's amazing. Like today, he was telling me all this stuff about Michael Jackson. Did you know (atleast in England) the Thriller video premiered at 12 o'clock on MTV? Well I didn't either. Or that he sang a song about his pet rat? Like seriously. I've been hearing all this stuff, like he was depressed and only happy when he was singing, and it makes me sad in all honesty. Lisa Marie Presley wrote in her blog that he said he was going to die like Elvis Presley, and now I can only imagine what his death was like. Hmm, I don't know, but now I'm thinking Michael Jackson was a really amazing person.

On a lighter note, I love Kelly Clarkson. For evsssssssss.

Anywhere.

All of these moments are lost in time
But you're caught in my head like a thorn on a vine
To forever torment me and I wonder why,
Do I wish I'd never known you at all?

I was reading something, and I know it's cliche, but it was true. To some extent, I don't think we can fully erase pain. When you cut open your skin, it might heal, but there is still evidence that there used to be something there.

So, I'm sick. I've been taking numerous days off school for the last few weeks, pretty much because I've been feeling depressed. It's being sick, but a different kind. So now I have the flu, and I want to go to school, but I can't. I recently re-discovered my love for The National. Seriously, if anyone knows a site that doesn't fuck up the mp3 downloads from a Youtube video, let me know. I will worship the ground you walk upon. I willllll~

Okay, short blog. I should be reading Strange Objects. Hello English..

The sun and the moon, an ocean of air. So many voices and nothing is there, but the ghost of you asking me why..
Why did I leave?