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I never really got into the whole Michael Jackson scene, but every song I've heard in the past two days I know. And I thank my father for that. My dad seriously has all this musical knowledge jam-packed into his head, it's amazing. Like today, he was telling me all this stuff about Michael Jackson. Did you know (atleast in England) the Thriller video premiered at 12 o'clock on MTV? Well I didn't either. Or that he sang a song about his pet rat? Like seriously. I've been hearing all this stuff, like he was depressed and only happy when he was singing, and it makes me sad in all honesty. Lisa Marie Presley wrote in her blog that he said he was going to die like Elvis Presley, and now I can only imagine what his death was like. Hmm, I don't know, but now I'm thinking Michael Jackson was a really amazing person.

On a lighter note, I love Kelly Clarkson. For evsssssssss.

Anywhere.

All of these moments are lost in time
But you're caught in my head like a thorn on a vine
To forever torment me and I wonder why,
Do I wish I'd never known you at all?

I was reading something, and I know it's cliche, but it was true. To some extent, I don't think we can fully erase pain. When you cut open your skin, it might heal, but there is still evidence that there used to be something there.

So, I'm sick. I've been taking numerous days off school for the last few weeks, pretty much because I've been feeling depressed. It's being sick, but a different kind. So now I have the flu, and I want to go to school, but I can't. I recently re-discovered my love for The National. Seriously, if anyone knows a site that doesn't fuck up the mp3 downloads from a Youtube video, let me know. I will worship the ground you walk upon. I willllll~

Okay, short blog. I should be reading Strange Objects. Hello English..

The sun and the moon, an ocean of air. So many voices and nothing is there, but the ghost of you asking me why..
Why did I leave?

Lost and Found and Lost.

Hello old friend. Well, you were created for a reason, and who have I been kidding! I'm nothing at the moment without my medication. I've been off it for a bit, but today, I took it because I needed to feel a little bit happy. I had a fight with Tom last night, and he treated me like I was this evil accusing bitch who didn't trust him. I was right, and we had a fight, only for him to do what he said he wasn't going to do. And guess what! He didn't even tell me. The joy of Facebook, right?

You know what, I don't understand people full stop. I'm just so angry right now. All I wanna do is crawl up and die. My life, without this relationship, sucked. But it sucks right now because I'm feeling a lot of shit inside. I've felt depressed all friggen week. I don't know anymore. I just give up.