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My accomplishments in the past month:
- I taught my self to knit, yayay.
- I got 100% in general maths, a woooooo~
My fallings:
- I'm still a moody child.

Fifty-two weeks ago tomorrow would've been my sixteenth birthday. And I remember that day. I had school, and then had work. And I met up with someone beforehand. She was a good friend, and even though everything ended on bad terms, I find myself wishing her every happiness, and I find myself missing that friendship. I honestly miss working, just for the people I used to know. Except Ziggy. But before him, Oporto used to be this really awesome environment. And I miss those people. I miss the Sunday Crew especially..
So I've changed my aspirations for after school again. Now I want to venture into Egyptology. And even though I'm welcoming the future, and all these new things, I still miss some things. I wish we didn't have to change, but I also wish some people would.

Just some thoughts as the end of my 16th year approaches.

Haunted.

Today I went out with Maria, and it was good. I love that girl a lot. Bruno was so bad we had to watch Hannah Montana to make up for it. The highlight of my day was when my Mum told us she wasn't Italian anymore. How, do not ask me ~
Also, I still love Kelly Clarkson forever. We were talking about her in the car and then Since You Been Gone came on and we sang our hearts out~ I also kicked Maria's arse in ABBA Singstar, despite what she says.

Maria, you are a hot bitch. School next week.. Not looking overly-forward to it. But it's my birthday on Friday, and then my party Saturday.. So it should be good. All I want for my birthday is the permission to sleep in every morning, and a big hug from my dog. And maybe a puppy~ So my Bella can have a friend (: Speaking of Crystal.. it's her birthday next Friday too (: I love my dog.

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I never really got into the whole Michael Jackson scene, but every song I've heard in the past two days I know. And I thank my father for that. My dad seriously has all this musical knowledge jam-packed into his head, it's amazing. Like today, he was telling me all this stuff about Michael Jackson. Did you know (atleast in England) the Thriller video premiered at 12 o'clock on MTV? Well I didn't either. Or that he sang a song about his pet rat? Like seriously. I've been hearing all this stuff, like he was depressed and only happy when he was singing, and it makes me sad in all honesty. Lisa Marie Presley wrote in her blog that he said he was going to die like Elvis Presley, and now I can only imagine what his death was like. Hmm, I don't know, but now I'm thinking Michael Jackson was a really amazing person.

On a lighter note, I love Kelly Clarkson. For evsssssssss.

Anywhere.

All of these moments are lost in time
But you're caught in my head like a thorn on a vine
To forever torment me and I wonder why,
Do I wish I'd never known you at all?

I was reading something, and I know it's cliche, but it was true. To some extent, I don't think we can fully erase pain. When you cut open your skin, it might heal, but there is still evidence that there used to be something there.

So, I'm sick. I've been taking numerous days off school for the last few weeks, pretty much because I've been feeling depressed. It's being sick, but a different kind. So now I have the flu, and I want to go to school, but I can't. I recently re-discovered my love for The National. Seriously, if anyone knows a site that doesn't fuck up the mp3 downloads from a Youtube video, let me know. I will worship the ground you walk upon. I willllll~

Okay, short blog. I should be reading Strange Objects. Hello English..

The sun and the moon, an ocean of air. So many voices and nothing is there, but the ghost of you asking me why..
Why did I leave?

Lost and Found and Lost.

Hello old friend. Well, you were created for a reason, and who have I been kidding! I'm nothing at the moment without my medication. I've been off it for a bit, but today, I took it because I needed to feel a little bit happy. I had a fight with Tom last night, and he treated me like I was this evil accusing bitch who didn't trust him. I was right, and we had a fight, only for him to do what he said he wasn't going to do. And guess what! He didn't even tell me. The joy of Facebook, right?

You know what, I don't understand people full stop. I'm just so angry right now. All I wanna do is crawl up and die. My life, without this relationship, sucked. But it sucks right now because I'm feeling a lot of shit inside. I've felt depressed all friggen week. I don't know anymore. I just give up.

Intro.

Well, a little update is needed I assume. Got my L's today, about time, I know~ I had my first driving lesson also. Holy fuck, I swear. Went out with Jazz last night, had a good night. I have so much love for that girl~* Haha (: But srsly, I love Friendship Fridays~~*

Tom's still in America. I'm seeing him in one week! Woo life (: I also need to start organising what we're doing Saturday. I know where we're going, but I need to organise it.

I'm finally getting my government money. $900, here I come. I'm looking at SLR cameras, and the one I was looking at was $887. I told my Dad about it and we went to have a look at them. He saw a model he liked, and then he bought a magazine on reviews and thinks that ones the best to start off with. It's $1400, haha, but he's pretty keen on getting that one for me.

Here's a photo of my future baby:


Isn't it just beautiful! Haha. I also had my first driving lesson in a Daimler, feeling pretty awesome about that~

I'm having a love affair with Vanilla Tea. The best shit I've ever tried in my life, I swear. Oh, and Grape Fanta~ Dear Lord, where hath thou been all my life?

Oh well, dinner is ready. I shall blog sooner or later~

If I Can't.

For all the hours here that move to slow,
There's all this letting go that won't pass.
If all this love is real how will we know?
And if we're only scared of losing it how will it last?